Seen and Understood: For the Quiet Ones With Loud Inner Worlds

There’s this girl I follow online who wakes up at 5am, fasts twice a week, never misses a morning quiet time, and journals her prayers in three different colors of gel pen. She’s always saying things like, “God gave me a word this morning during my 2-hour devotion” and honestly? I don’t know whether to clap or cry. Because on most days, I’m just trying not to cuss at my WiFi for cutting out again. Or zone out mid-prayer. Or scroll Instagram while pretending it’s “rest.” And here’s the weird truth I’m kinda scared to admit. What if I’ll never be that strong Christian? What if my spiritual life always feels a little wobbly? A little inconsistent? A little… messy? This one might flip your definition of “strong” upside down. You might leave feeling closer to Jesus than you thought. There was a season where I believed strength in faith looked like performance. Consistency. Memorizing Leviticus just for fun. Crying every time Hillsong came on. And honestly, I tried. I tried to read the...

I once almost moved to Bali because I had a really good cup of coffee and the beach smelt like freedom. I stood there, arms stretched, hair tangled, heart pounding like a Hillsong bridge, and thought this is it . This is my destiny. I was ready to book a one-way ticket and start a coconut business called "Thy Will Be Done (on Earth as it is in Bali)." Fortunately, I didn't. Because five days later, I got a mild sunburn, a mosquito bit my eyelid, and I wanted to go home to my bed, my aircon, and my overpriced Singapore bubble tea. So… should I follow my emotions? Or not? Spoiler: sometimes they lead you to worship God in a field with tear-stained cheeks. Other times? They lead you to text your ex at 2:17am while eating cereal with your fingers. Welcome to the Christian life, where feelings are real, but not always right. And that, my friend, is where the plot thickens. What Are Emotions, Really? Emotions are not bad. They’re just not boss . They’re like children in...

(plus: yes, these are trendy and not boring, I promise) Sometimes, I think people forget Christians read actual books. Like real, beautiful, soul-pricking, heart-shaking books. Not just commentaries and prayer journals (though we love those too). This post was born out of a conversation I’ve had with a few friends recently, all of us low-key frustrated, saying, “There are so many Christian books out there, but why do I always end up rereading the same ones or wasting time on something dry and textbooky?” So I did what any opinionated Christian girl with a Wi-Fi connection would do. I compiled a list. Not just any list. A list of 12 modern, impactful, not-boring books written by people who actually live like they know Jesus. These books are current. They’re trending. They’re being underlined with real pens and posted in Instagram stories with crying emojis and quiet captions like “ouch but yes.” A few of these made me laugh, a few made me want to delete all my idols, and some just ...

You ever get that weird internal spiral where you’re like, “God, if that was You, blink twice”? And then you wait for a thunderclap, a dove to descend, or your Spotify shuffle to prophetically land on Oceans ? Same. I’ve gone entire weeks,  months ,  in a borderline mental breakdown loop trying to decode whether a random intrusive thought about moving to Iceland was God, the devil, or just my dehydrated brain on 3 hours of sleep and 2 iced coffees. At some point, I even tried casting lots with my laundry (don’t ask). Hearing God shouldn’t feel like hacking into the Pentagon. But let’s admit it: for many of us Christian overthinkers, it does . Why is hearing God so hard sometimes? Honestly? Because we’re scared to get it wrong. We don’t want to embarrass ourselves, mislead others, or make a stupid life choice and slap a “God told me” sticker on it. And beneath that fear, there’s this ache to be loved well by Him. If I can just hear His voice clearly, I’ll feel safe, righ...

“I’m Ready, God. Where Are They?” You’ve read every “Christian dating” article on the internet (hi, welcome to another one). You’ve journaled your heart out, set up healthy boundaries, healed from childhood wounds, deleted situationships, re-downloaded Hinge, and even sat through the dreaded couples’ sermon alone. Twice. At this point, you’re like, “Okay God, I get it. I’ve grown. I’ve learned. Can we move on to the part where someone’s son texts me back?” But then… nothing. Just more bridal showers and another wedding hashtag you didn’t ask to see. Waiting is hard. Waiting well feels impossible. But even when you're rolling your eyes at the sky, God's timing in dating still matters. Here's why.   1. God’s Not Being Mean, He’s Being Merciful Let’s start here: God isn’t withholding a relationship because He’s bored or trying to teach you some spiritual algebra. He’s protecting you. From the wrong people. From premature connections. From heartbreaks you’re not built ...

Christian dating is supposed to be this magical blend of prayer, purity, and purpose... right? But let’s be real. Sometimes it’s a chaotic mix of awkward coffee dates, weird text devotionals, and people who “love Jesus” but also ghost you for a month straight. While the internet is filled with the usual red flags (anger issues, manipulation, lack of accountability), there’s a whole spiritual category of 🚩 red flags that no one seems to talk about. Until now. So let’s go there. Let’s talk about the stuff that makes you pause mid-worship and think, “Wait… is this holy or just hot-and-cold confusion in a Bible verse wrapper?”   1. They Use “God Told Me” as a Trump Card “God told me you’re my wife.” Sir… we just met ten minutes ago . This is spiritual manipulation in a holy disguise. If they’re constantly pulling the “ God said ” card to guilt, pressure, or fast-forward your emotions, that’s not discernment, it’s domination. Yes, God speaks, but He’s not in the business of overri...